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I am a penniless worker living in Japan who has gained followers by posting sexual artworks—call it pornography if you will—on various platforms.

While I occasionally create works that don't fall into that category, either way, this reflects my life experience deeply shaped by the cultural aspects of my love for comics and video games.

Searching my name will likely bring up my creations, but if you don't want to see them, absolutely do not look.

I also hold political leanings often categorized as liberal. While this label doesn't quite capture me accurately—I'm more precisely left-wing—I often refrain from correcting it because setting these distinctions aside often makes my point clearer.

Furthermore, I suffer from a relatively severe mental illness and am officially recognized as disabled.

These elements that make up who I am have, therefore, been my suffering for nearly a decade.

Because I live in a place like Japan.

I suppose I do hate this nation after all.

Many friends I once cherished suffered from mental and physical health issues and passed away.

They were truly good people, and even ten years later, I sometimes cry in my sleep remembering their loss.

I remain convinced that it was the very mentality prevalent among this nation's majority that let them die.

If you stay confined to relationships among Japanese speakers on social media, you'll likely grow utterly sick of how native Japanese speakers deceive themselves and others, pretending to live solely for hobbies as if stripped of all political awareness, while showing no inclination to hide the misogyny, xenophobia, Islamophobia, and racism so closely tied to their obsessions with video games, anime, manga, and idols.

I simply cannot get along with the vast majority of them. This is only natural.

That's why I suddenly thought: I want to speak without using Japanese.

I expect there will be many linguistically clumsy parts, but if there are any inappropriate word choices, I would appreciate it if you could point them out.