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 In most cases, staring at an LCD monitor for extended periods causes eye strain, making it painful even to keep your eyelids open. Drawing isn't something that can be finished in an hour or so; it means working while enduring such discomfort, and while drawing, it becomes difficult to make a sound judgment about whether the picture is truly correct.


As is well known, I am a disabled person afflicted by illness, and because I suffer from such health issues, I absolutely cannot tolerate the torment inflicted upon the vulnerable by politics and administration—or to put it more strongly, the eugenic ideology of fascists—that able-bodied people might overlook.


To reiterate from last time: I am absolutely not a “genius,” much less a “god.”

If anyone were to call me such things... well, someone actually did... that person is dishonest, and I strongly advise you not to believe them. After all, I didn't believe those words either.

An honest person would say something like, “I really love your work,” or use some sensible phrasing.


In short, I'm just an ordinary person. The current reality is this: if I take a cool, detached stance towards some influencer optimized for the attention economy on social media who tries to elevate me with impact-driven, excessive, and blatantly phony labels like “genius” or “god,”  impressions and reactions to me plummet to around 10. That's the accurate assessment of me.


But even so, I don't want to stop investing in my future. For now.

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